LISA: This book was suggested by Liz, whose sister had read it and said that she couldn't put it down. I wouldn't give it that kind of a recommendation -- but I did have no trouble reading it through. It just wasn't great. The writer, Jessica Stern, was raped when her sister and she were alone in their house. She was 15 and her sister was 14. It was in the small town of Concord, Mass. and such things didn't happen there. As a result, the police department did not really DO anything. And this was not the first trauma that Jessica had experienced. She had lost her mother to cancer when she was four, and then her father remarried a much younger woman. Who sort of became her mother, but she was young and didn't know how to be one. Later this woman divorced her father for a younger man -- and Jessica and her sister were sort of left in no-mommy-limbo once again. She never had a very strong relationship with her father's third wife, and was rebellious through her teen years. She believes now it was because of the rape. I believe it was because of a lot of things, combined.
As an adult, Jessica became an expert on terrorists. She believes that it is a result of her rape that she was drawn to this. Maybe so. The book is sort of a record of how she goes about dealing with the rape as an adult, and subsequently realizing she has post traumatic stress disorder. But there are no happy endings here. Not really. She sort of seems to deal with the idea of having been raped. But the reader is left with a a feeling that she is just kidding herself. She repeats things, and I presume it is on purpose. Part of her overall issue is that her father never really showed any love or feeling because he was a child who grew up in Nazi Germany and experienced things like the SS coming in and possibly raping his mother. But his philosophy is more of a buck up, move on, and stop contemplating your naval.
As I keep writing, I realize that I got more out of the book than I thought I did! Perhaps it was a worthwhile read!!!!
HALLIE: I really couldn't decide how I felt out about this book. The book kept me reading along but more so because I kept thinking there would be this big revelation or occurence that explained why Stern wrote the way she did. First off she wasn't a great writer and then as Lisa mentioned above she repeated large portions of the book a couple of times. I was never able to understand what these technical moves were meant to portray. I did appreciate how cleanly she described peoples emotions, thoughts, and actions. I was almost able to connect with everyone she described whether it was herself, family, her rapist, a terrorist and that is usually hard to do. She was able to almost avoid the emotion, which i guess is maybe what she was trying to get across. I ended it all with a somewhat eh feeling so this def wouldn't be my first suggestion for someone else, but maybe these things intrigue you.... if they do it's worth a read.